Please welcome first-time contributor Emily Townsend, a self-portrait photographer from Issaquah, Washington, who has been unwillingly dealing with dysthymia since age 7. Some days are all right, while others are terrifying, especially the nights. She believes that she knows the cure to being happy, but she is held back by a lot of things that prevent her from getting there. Once she graduates from Stephen F Austin in 2017, she will move back to Seattle where she believes the sun will shine for her once again.
About this photo: “Outside my freshman dorm there was a pond and several short bridges lit with Christmas lights. I had finished studying for finals and took a break with my camera, using a tripod and a remote to get this image. I remember thinking that “I will always be lonely for the holidays.” I was the only one of my high school friends to go to a school with no one I knew. I plunged into uncharted territory, and that scared me. I like to imagine that my expression says, “I was looking back at you wondering if you were looking back at me wondering if I was looking back at you.” As it turns out, no one bothers to look back at me.”
Find more from Emily at her blog.