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The Black Swan

Photo taken by contributor Jaeda DeWalt, a conceptual self-portrait artist in her forties from Seattle, Washington. Her battles with mental illness hearken back to her earliest memories, at age four, when she became obsessed with the number four and performed exhaustive rituals in patterns of four. During her teen years, she began noticing extreme mood swings, manic one moment and depressed the next, and in her late 20′s she finally sought treatment and was diagnosed with Bipolar, OCD, Anxiety, ADHD, and PTSD from the trauma of being sexually abused as a child into her young adult years. Her life was filled with self-destructive coping methods until she went full force into creating, in her mid-twenties. The process of creating and putting herself in front of the camera felt cathartic, liberating and healing. The photographic medium opened up a new world to her and ignited a kind of passion within that she didn’t even know she was capable of experiencing. She has been on an ever-evolving, healing journey, ever since.

About this photo: “I have felt like an outsider all my life due a lack of love in my childhood, the abuse, and early manifestations of mental illness. I was the black sheep, a misfit. As a child, I marched to my own unique beat. My mother disliked the way I looked physically and was also bothered by my strong-willed, sensitive and creative nature. I allowed her to make me feel like the ugliest, weirdest kid, on the face of the earth and she’d often ask, “Why can’t you act normal?”.

As an adult, I began to realize these were my mother’s issues and they needn’t remain mine. I finally embraced my eccentricity, creativity, and exotic physicality. This image symbolizes that transformation.”

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4 comments on “The Black Swan

  1. autisticaplanet
    August 30, 2016

    I’m sorry you had to be made to feel less as a child. I am glad you are strong enough to realize that the way she treated you was about her, not you.

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  2. Alan Kravitz
    August 30, 2016

    Reblogged this on Not always smiling.

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  3. ifnotforpassion
    August 31, 2016

    Stunning, not just in content but story behind it. How strong you are for having gotten over that kind of ridiculous cruelty. Great work.

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  4. Cla-c
    September 12, 2016

    Your photo your words ..amazing .I wonder if you even know by telling your story how much it means to me personally .Your words are my words .You are beautiful inside and out ,you are so special ,I am so happy for you that you know now those were her ‘demons’.I admire you ,you are an amazing artist .You are my Hero ,and I look up to you as an artist and a very special person .You go girl !!!!

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