Photo taken by contributor Shelby Hall, a 22-year-old mother from Dallas, Texas. Before her boys were born, she had a difficult relationship with her now fiancé, in part due to his struggles with drug addiction. She suffered from depression through much of their early relationship as a result of being unable to cope. Loving someone with addiction can feel hopeless at times. She felt lost and unsure about who she was, and who she was trying to be. During that rough time in her life she found herself comforted and consoled by her photography. Shelby’s fiancé is now two years sober, and they are wonderfully happy parents. She loves having her photos to look back on. They read like a timeline and you can see the progressions and pitfalls through them all. They also serve as a reminder of how much stronger she and her fiancé are today.
About this photo: “This photograph was taken in Little Elm. It’s a photo of my little sister. She is my favorite model. She always portrays exactly what I want and never questions my reasons, which is so important to me. When I create something, it’s my way of expressing the things I can’t say. And I usually can’t say them for the pure fact that I’m scared. So when I told her to jump in the freezing cold water, it meant so much to me that she didn’t follow with questions like “why?” or “what does this mean?” The best way to describe my feelings when coming up with the concept is that I felt lost at sea.”
Find more from Shelby at her blog.