Photo taken by contributor Tiger Lillies, a woman in her forties from Ontario who suffers from deep depression, psychosis, and agoraphobia, possibly bipolar disorder, all while raising her five and six-year-old grandchildren. Thankfully she has a supportive partner Rick who helps make daily life with children possible. Her grandchildren, as well as her recent love of photography, have become her saviors and kept her from succumbing to the negative temptations that regularly haunt her. She has tried to commit suicide several times in the past, but thankfully is still with us. Her hopes are to get past her illness, as well as glaucoma, and become a professional photographer.
About this photo: “The last couple of months have been a very challenging time for me. On Aug 4th. I was rushed into the hospital to be prepped for emergency surgery for the next morning. I hadn’t been feeling very well for quite sometime, and after having a CT scan it was found that I have colon cancer. Everything was happening so fast! It wasn’t until late at night when I was alone, my mind began to wonder. My greatest fear was who would care for my babies. I couldn’t die! I wont die! I have to be here for my babies. The surgery took 10 hours, I was told that most of my colon was removed a large tumour 6 inches long was attached to my spleen and pancreas, they were removed as well part of my large bowel. If the truth be told, two days later I felt amazing!! I wasn’t sick anymore, I knew I was going to live to raise my children.
I was home a month when I had to go back to see the surgeon. My hope was of course they removed all the cancer, but my biggest hope was to have my colostomy reversed. I could hear the Dr. speaking with another right out side the door of the room I was in. “It was a very difficult surgery”. He said. My belly sank. I so badly wanted to cry, but stopped myself. This was it. I was going to hear bad news. The Doctor opened the door and smiled at me. He began his conversation by saying how surprised he is with the results. “We removed all of the cancer!” It was as though there was a spring under my butt. I jumped out of my chair, raised my hands towards heaven and yelled “PRAISE GOD!!” I then grabbed him giving him a big hug…I believe I even told the man I loved him. “I am going to refer you to an oncologist, but feel that you wont be needing any treatments.” The appointment was over, and time to go and tell my family. I leaped out of the room…bounced out to my family, and skipped all the way to the truck. I was on the road to recovery!!
Last Thursday I had the appointment with the Oncologist. He repeated that they were able to remove all the cancer….BUT, to be on the safe side, he felt I would need treatments. This week I will be going to the cancer clinic to have the PICC put in, and next week I will begin my chemo treatments. “We are going to keep on top of this!” He said as I left the room. I will be given treatments for 6 months.
If I am going to try and make sense of any of this, it is that I was shown that Angels are amongst us. The support that I have received from family friends and strangers has been over whelming. Clothes, shoes, school supplies and money given for my children. Clothes bought for me. A dear friend expressing her love with saying if anything should happen that her and her husband would raise my children! This morning I received a phone call from a lady who is going to help with a special diet, and other programs that I’m going to need. GOD IS GOOD!!
This picture was taken yesterday. Rick and I were out for a drive, when we saw this beauty standing by the fence. I stepped out of the truck and he stood there for a very long time. As though he knew I thought he was beautiful and needed to get back into photography. A truck pulled up behind us. The gentleman in the truck is the owner of the horses and said I was more then welcome to come back anytime to take pictures!!
Regardless of all the negatives that are happening, the positives over weight them. I’m going to be alright, and be around for quite some time to come.“
Find more from Tiger Lillies at her blog.