Who we are & why we are

Welcome to the gallery site of Broken Light Collective. We are artists of all levels and abilities who are affected by mental illness. We create and we share our work for the therapeutic benefits to us, as well as others who may be struggling and feeling scared and alone. Together we can move from disconnected to collective.

Photo taken by contributor Carrie Hilgert, a 36-year-old photographer and portrait artist from Northeast Kansas. After venturing into digital photography, she became interested in documenting her life with self portraits. This became particularly helpful when her life started to fall apart due to depression. All her other creative outlets left her, but she could always process her very dark feelings with self portraits. While she is doing much better now, she maintains compassion for those going through these hard things and hopes that her photography can give an honest insight into something that makes most people feel very isolated and alone.

About this photo: “While my depression is mostly better, there are times, like during pms, that it likes to pay me a visit.

I know when it comes because suddenly I’m so sad I want to curl up in my blanket and cry about nothing.

I know when it comes because putting on my clothes for work becomes more difficult than lifting 50 lb bags of concrete after that point where your arms are too weak to lift anything else

I know when it comes because I wake up wondering if I have a legitimate excuse for not showing up to work. Is mentally unstable acceptable? Methinks not.

It could lift at any time. Experience has taught me this. But in this moment its threatening my happiness and there’s nothing I can do but wait and fight another bloody battle of the mind.”


**Visit Broken Light’s main gallery here. Currently accepting submissions.

*Like us on Facebook & Twitter. Follow below for e-mail notifications.

2 responses to “Heavy Limbs and Clothes Made of Concrete”

  1. iantimings Avatar

    As a sufferer or Bipolar Disorder I am no stranger to the horrors of depression. Not many understand or appreciate the effort and struggle it takes at times to do the everyday things which many take for granted. I wish you all the very best in your battles, I admire and respect the strength it must take to continue working.


    1. carrieblueberry Avatar

      thank you. I’ve been much better this summer. light and warmth is a wonderful thing!


Please Join the Conversation!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: