Photo taken by contributor Carrie Hilgert, a photographer and portrait artist in her thirties from Northeast Kansas. After venturing into digital photography, she became interested in documenting her life with self portraits. This became particularly helpful when her life started to fall apart due to depression. All her other creative outlets left her, but she could always process her very dark feelings with self portraits. While she is doing much better now, she maintains compassion for those going through these hard things and hopes that her photography can give an honest insight into something that makes most people feel very isolated and alone.
About this photo: “This is from a series on fear and uncertainty. Fear seems to be a recurring theme in my life, no matter how hard I fight it. Fear of abandonment, of not being noticed, of my mental illness consuming me, of what people will think if they see the real me, of losing my creativity and worst, of getting to the end of my life without having let all of the wonderful things inside me come out. This image is about the battle against fear. I think most of us recognize that internal war with something. Whether it’s fear or not, no matter how long you’ve been fighting it, there are times when the battle is fierce and for me, it’s usually when I am trying to grow. The ego doesn’t like change.”
Find more from Carrie at her blog or flickr.
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Hi Carrie, I know those fears and I know that battle. You captured it.
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We would love to post that at toemail if you do not mind?http://toemail.wordpress.com
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sure thing
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Thanks! Will let you know when it is posted.
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It’s posted now. Thanks so much, we really appreciate it! 🙂
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Please make sure to credit Carrie, and include links to her site and Broken Light Collective if possible. Thanks.
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Very powerful words too.
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I recognize your internal war. I have experienced it. An amazing photograph.
Thank you for sharing your photograph and your thoughts.
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Great image
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Haunting photograph. Amazing. Keep up the good work.
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Perfect Carries!
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Thank you, Carrie- I can identify with your struggle indeed- and interesting picture! . .
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